i have loads of homework yet to be done. i'm so screwed. i keep putting them off and now it's the last week of the holidays already. now i have to chiong finish all of them at one go.

and i got sun's album already! it's nice, really. go buy okay? xD

mutual respect? mutual trust? hah. utter crap.

there's absolutely none of that in our 'friendship'. maybe that's why we're not best friends? yeah. i guess so. and you're so disappointed in me? hah. what a joke please. like i'm so impressed with how much you trust me lidat. yes, you brought me into church. and i'm grateful to you for it. you're God sent, but what have you done to make me trust in you. nothing. nothing at all. all you do is criticise, but have you ever thought of how i feel? haha. guess not. not ever i think. i wouldn't ever tell you what i feel, for you're not someone i would want to confide in. what have you dont to gain my respect? nothing at all. nothing. i dont think you'll ever get to see this. maybe it's a good thing?

we've quarelled a few times throughout the 2 years in ctss. i dont even know if it's a blessing or what lah. please Lord, help me. it's like a problem after another. i need You to pull me through. for i am weak, but You are strong. i'm not going to cry anymore, cos she's not worth my tears. i'm not going to waste my time over something so silly, cos i'm stronger now. and i dont need you.

TGFGY though. (:

you can figue out what that means. if you're really that bored. hahah.